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Low Blood Sugar Brain
Aug. 29th, 2018 10:39 pmI manage to maneuver my magnifier to read the nutrition label, even though my hands are shaking. My blood sugar is currently 69. I need to count out one serving from the box of crackers I’ve just opened. If I don’t, I’ll end up eating three servings and be up at 2:30 in the morning with a high blood sugar.
Insulin is the only thing that is keeping me alive but can also kill me. Think about that. It’s scary, isn’t it? Insulin is also the seventh most expensive liquid in the world…
I eat one serving of crackers. Twenty-five crackers is eighteen grams of carb. I almost forget and eat eighteen crackers instead. It probably wouldn’t have made a huge difference. But I still want to eat everything in sight. Time to wait and monitor my blood sugar.
Monitor. I’ve been told for the last fifteen years to monitor my blood sugar. Monitor my carb intake. Monitor my insulin dosages. Monitor keytones when my blood sugar is over 300. But at my appointment last week, my doctor used monitor for something else. There were some slightly abnormal lab results, but nothing to be concerned with yet, so we’re monitoring them and will check again in a few months. The numbness in my right big toe could be early signs of neuropathy, but since I’m only feeling numbness in one toe on one foot and not the other, it’s more likely my toe is numb because of the narrow shoes I wore for five days. But I should monitor it.
Are complications creeping in? I don’t know. I don’t think so. It isn’t time to worry yet, so I’m not worried.
I should probably not write while my blood sugar is low; I’m not always sure if what I’m saying makes sense. I’ve occasionally written emails or texts to friends while I’m coming up from a low, and I usually end up closing with something like, “Sorry if that doesn’t make sense.” What I want to say is, “Does that make sense? Sorry. Low blood sugar brain.” I don’t say this, because it makes me feel like I’m blaming my thoughts and actions on my Diabetes. Thus, Diabetes is controlling me. I am not controlling it. I should always be controlling it, not just monitoring it, and certainly not blaming it for my mood or ability to communicate. But…
Does this post make sense? Sorry. Low blood sugar brain.
Insulin is the only thing that is keeping me alive but can also kill me. Think about that. It’s scary, isn’t it? Insulin is also the seventh most expensive liquid in the world…
I eat one serving of crackers. Twenty-five crackers is eighteen grams of carb. I almost forget and eat eighteen crackers instead. It probably wouldn’t have made a huge difference. But I still want to eat everything in sight. Time to wait and monitor my blood sugar.
Monitor. I’ve been told for the last fifteen years to monitor my blood sugar. Monitor my carb intake. Monitor my insulin dosages. Monitor keytones when my blood sugar is over 300. But at my appointment last week, my doctor used monitor for something else. There were some slightly abnormal lab results, but nothing to be concerned with yet, so we’re monitoring them and will check again in a few months. The numbness in my right big toe could be early signs of neuropathy, but since I’m only feeling numbness in one toe on one foot and not the other, it’s more likely my toe is numb because of the narrow shoes I wore for five days. But I should monitor it.
Are complications creeping in? I don’t know. I don’t think so. It isn’t time to worry yet, so I’m not worried.
I should probably not write while my blood sugar is low; I’m not always sure if what I’m saying makes sense. I’ve occasionally written emails or texts to friends while I’m coming up from a low, and I usually end up closing with something like, “Sorry if that doesn’t make sense.” What I want to say is, “Does that make sense? Sorry. Low blood sugar brain.” I don’t say this, because it makes me feel like I’m blaming my thoughts and actions on my Diabetes. Thus, Diabetes is controlling me. I am not controlling it. I should always be controlling it, not just monitoring it, and certainly not blaming it for my mood or ability to communicate. But…
Does this post make sense? Sorry. Low blood sugar brain.
